On the morning of September 25th, 1980, John Paul Jones and a road manager named Benji Lefevre found John Bonham’s body in a bedroom at Jimmy Page’s house in Windsor. Within hours, Page’s home [music] had been cleared of most of the people who had been there the night before. Within days, the band had begun the process of deciding what came next.

Within weeks, it was clear that what came next was nothing. Led Zeppelin issued their dissolution statement on December 4th, 1980. And then, the three surviving members scattered. Plant to his farm in Worcestershire, Jones to a quiet period of session work and composition, and Page to somewhere that was, for the better part of 3 years, effectively invisible.

He disappeared. Not in a metaphorical sense, in a literal, documented, physical sense, Jimmy Page, the most visible guitarist in the world, the man whose face and guitar had been on magazine covers and concert footage and television screens for 12 years, simply stopped appearing. The industry that had been built around Led Zeppelin’s existence went quiet.

Page’s name fell out of the music press. He gave no interviews. He made no public appearances. >> [music] >> He released nothing. He was 40 years old, and he had just watched the friend who had been in a room with him the night John Bonham died, the man who had built something that could not be rebuilt, be carried out of his own house and into a coroner’s report.

If you’re new here, this channel tells the real stories behind Led Zeppelin that nobody talked about. Subscribe so you don’t miss what’s coming next. This is the story of what actually happened in those years. What Page was doing when nobody could find him. What it cost him. And the specific moment that ended the disappearance >> [music] >> and began the long complicated process of figuring out who Jimmy Page was without the band that had defined him.

The first concrete fact about Page’s immediate post-Zeppelin period is the most revealing one. He stopped [music] playing guitar. Not gradually, not occasionally, but completely. For more than a year after Bonham’s death, the man who had been playing the [music] instrument since he was 12 years old, who had built his entire professional identity around it, who had spent 12 years producing some of the most documented guitar work in the history of rock music, did not pick up a guitar.

This is not speculation or [music] inference. It is documented in multiple accounts from people who worked around him during this period, and it is consistent with what Page himself has said in the rare occasions when he has addressed those years directly. He stopped playing. The guitar that had been the organizing principle of his entire adult life sat somewhere in his house, untouched, while the man who owned it did whatever it was he was doing with the hours that had previously been consumed by recording sessions and

concert preparations and the continuous machinery of Led Zeppelin’s existence. What was he doing? This is where the documentation becomes [music] thinner. Page’s willingness to discuss his inner life has always been limited, constrained by the specific private quality that has characterized him since before Led Zeppelin existed.

The mystique that was partly calculated and partly temperamental, a genuine preference for keeping the personal separate from the public, that deepened significantly in the early 1980s. The accounts that exist come primarily from people who encountered him peripherally during this period, not from Page himself.

[music] Stewart Epps, a recording engineer who worked with Page on the Coda project during this time, gave an account in an interview that stands as one of the most direct descriptions available of Page’s state in the immediate post-Bonham period. Epps described Page as appearing emotionally detached during their sessions together, present in the room but somehow not fully there.

He said it was difficult to know whether Page’s eccentricity during this period reflected the fact that he was still managing the dependency that had characterized his final years with Led Zeppelin or whether it reflected grief or whether some combination of the two had produced a state that made it difficult to distinguish between them.

Epps said that Page did not tell him what to do, that he simply sat with the tapes as Epps worked and only exercised his judgment at the end to say whether something was acceptable or not. The Coda project itself, a collection of unreleased Led Zeppelin recordings compiled and released in 1982 as the band’s final official release, was the first concrete output from the post-Zeppelin period and it is telling in what it reveals about Page’s state of mind. He did not make something new.

He assembled something old. He went through the archive of material that Led Zeppelin had produced across 12 years and found recordings that had not been released. And he put them together in an order that constituted a tribute to what the band had been, rather than a statement about what Page intended to do next.

The album was dedicated to John Bonham. It was the closest thing to a public statement about the loss that Page produced during those first 2 years. The first time Page played a guitar in public after Bonham’s death was in March 1981, approximately 6 months after Bonham died, at a Jeff Beck concert at the Hammersmith Odeon in London.

He walked on stage without announcement and played a guest set with Beck. The audience’s reaction was intense in the way that an audience reacts when someone they had not expected to see appears in front of them. Surprise that tipped quickly into something more emotional, recognition of the specific weight of what the appearance meant.

Page said later, in one of the few direct accounts he gave of his return to playing, that the experience of playing guitar again after months of not touching one was something he approached with specific anxiety, as though the skill might have atrophied or the desire might have gone. It had not. What he found when he picked up the guitar at Hammersmith was that the technical capability was intact and that the desire was intact and that the grief was also intact and that all three existed simultaneously in a way that he had not

been prepared for. Playing the guitar did not make the grief go away. It coexisted with it. The second significant attempt to start something new was a project that has since become one of the more intriguing footnotes in [music] the post-Zeppelin period. In 1981, Page formed a group with Chris Squire, the bass player from Yes, and Alan [music] White, Yes’s drummer.

The group called themselves XYZ. The name was an abbreviation for X Yes X Zeppelin, a statement of what the founding members had come from rather than a statement of where they were going. Page described the formation of XYZ in a 2020 Rolling Stone interview with the specific honesty that tends to appear in accounts of events that happened 40 years ago and that the speaker has had time to fully absorb.

“If you know the precision of Yes, you know how technically brilliant they were,” Page said. “And so I was in there with Chris Squire, the extraordinary bass player, and Alan White, the drummer, and they had suggested that we go it together. Why not do that? It was the first thing that I did after we’d lost John Bonham, and I thought, ‘If there’s ever anything like trying [music] to jump in the deep end, this is it.

‘” The phrase jumping in the deep end is precise and revealing. XYZ was Page’s attempt to get back into serious musical collaboration, and he chose to do it in the most demanding environment available, working with musicians whose technical standards [music] were among the highest in rock, whose compositional approach was completely different from Led Zeppelin’s, who would challenge him in ways that a less demanding project would not.

The sessions were intense and productive enough to generate substantial material. Bootleg recordings of the XYZ sessions have circulated among enthusiasts for decades and show Page playing with a fluency and imagination that suggests his absence from the guitar had not cost him what he had feared it might.

Some of the material from those sessions eventually found its way into other projects. Pages later banned the firm and two Yes songs that appeared on subsequent albums, both drawing on ideas that had been developed in the XYZ rehearsals. The project was shelved before it became a public release. The reasons have never been fully explained and the XYZ sessions remain one of the more tantalizing unreleased artifacts of Page’s career.

The Death Wish 2 soundtrack, released in 1982, was Page’s first official solo recording. The first time music bearing his name appeared in a commercial context without the Led Zeppelin framework around it. The commission came from film director Michael Winner, who had used a Led Zeppelin track in the original Death Wish film in 1974 and who approached Page directly when the sequel was in production.

Page composed and recorded the entire soundtrack at The Sol, a recording studio in Cookham, Berkshire, that he had recently purchased from producer Gus Dudgeon and that would serve as his primary creative base for the following years. The Death Wish 2 soundtrack is not a celebrated artifact of Page’s catalog.

It is a competent film score that accomplished what film scores are supposed to accomplish, providing atmospheric support for scenes that required specific emotional tones without making the kind of artistic statements that Led Zeppelin’s albums had made. But it was significant for a reason that had nothing to do with its musical content.

It existed. It was finished. It was released. Jimmy Page had made something and put it into the world for the first time since Bonham’s death. And the fact of its completion was evidence that whatever the preceding two years had cost him, he had retained the ability to function as a professional musician. He followed it with the Cozetta release later in 1982, and then with the ARMS charity concerts in 1983, shows organized to raise money for multiple sclerosis research in honor of Ronnie Lane, the former Faces and Small Faces

bass player, who had been living with the disease since the mid-1970s. The ARMS concerts brought Page onto a stage with Jeff Beck and Eric Clapton for the first time. Three of the most significant British guitarists of their generation together in a context that was specifically about something beyond any of their individual careers.

Page performed material from the Death Wish 2 soundtrack and an instrumental version of Stairway to Heaven. The response from audiences who had not seen him perform since Led Zeppelin’s final European tour in 1980 was overwhelming. The ARMS concerts were, in retrospect, the moment when the disappearance effectively ended.

Page was back in front of audiences playing with musicians he respected, contributing to something that had a purpose beyond his own career. The specific combination of serious musical demands in a charitable context gave the return a gravity that a more commercially oriented comeback might not have provided. The question that the documented history of those three years raises and does not fully answer is what was actually happening inside the disappearance.

What Page was experiencing emotionally and psychologically during the period when he stopped playing and withdrew from public view. The accounts available are fragmentary and largely second-hand. What they suggest, without definitively establishing, is a picture of a man navigating grief and the aftermath of his own dependency simultaneously.

At a moment when the external structure that had organized his adult life, Led Zeppelin, the schedule of recording and touring, >> [music] >> the creative partnership with Bonham and Plant and Jones, had been removed all at once. Charlotte Martin, Page’s partner from 1970 to approximately 1982, was with him through most of this period and her account of those years has never been given in any public forum.

She has maintained a privacy about her life with Page that makes the domestic reality of the post-Zeppelin period essentially undocumented from that perspective. Their daughter, Scarlet Page, who was 9 years old when Bonham died, has also not spoken publicly about this period in any [music] detail. What is documented is the professional trajectory.

The guitar stopped, then slowly started again. The projects began to accumulate. The public appearances resumed in 1983 with the ARMS concerts and continued from there. The speed of the recovery, once it began, suggests that what had been interrupted was not Page’s ability, but his willingness. That the capability had been present throughout the disappearance, but that whatever it cost him emotionally to pick up the guitar and make something with it had been for a period too high to pay.

He emerged from it eventually as the men who survived these kinds of experiences tend to emerge, not restored to what they were before, but functional and carrying what had happened into the work that followed. The Firm, formed in 1984 with vocalist Paul Rodgers, was a conventional rock band effort that attracted strong commercial interest and critical ambivalence.

The collaborations with Plant that eventually produced the No Quarter album and tour in the 1990s were something more personal, a partial reconstruction conducted with appropriate caution, of the creative connection that had once produced Led Zeppelin’s music, but those are later chapters. The chapter that runs from September 25th, 1980, to the ARMS concerts in late 1983 [music] is the one that almost nobody who loves Led Zeppelin’s music has ever fully seen.

The man who made that music went somewhere for 3 years and was not entirely findable. And what he was doing in the space where Led Zeppelin had been is one of the quieter, less documented stories in a history that contains many loud and extensively documented ones. He stopped playing guitar. He started again, slowly, when he was ready. He came back to the stage at a charity concert named for a friend who was sick.

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There is a specific quality to the silence of this period that is worth naming. Led Zeppelin had been for 12 years one of the most loudly present bands in the world. Their tours generated press coverage, controversy, documented incidents, interviews, photographs, fan accounts, bootleg recordings, a continuous stream of documentation that fills biographies, documentaries, and archive collections to this day.

The machinery of being Led Zeppelin produced constant output, including the output of information about what Led Zeppelin’s members were doing and thinking and experiencing. When that machinery stopped, the silence was absolute in a way that the music industry was not accustomed to. There were no press releases explaining what Jimmy Page was doing.

There were no interviews with journalists who had been given access to wherever he was living. There were no carefully managed public appearances designed to maintain his profile while he worked on whatever was coming next. There was nothing. The man who had been producing more documented output per year than almost anyone in rock music simply stopped to being documentable, and the press that had covered him for 12 years had nothing to cover.

This silence was itself a kind of statement, though Page has never identified it as such. It was a refusal of the expectation that he would explain himself, process his grief publicly, manage the transition to a post-Zeppelin career with the [music] kind of calculated transparency that the music industry had come to expect from major artists navigating major changes.

Page went quiet instead. [music] Whether that silence was protective or simply the natural expression of a person who had always valued privacy over visibility is impossible to know from the outside. What it produced was a three-year gap in the documentary record that has never been filled. The XYZ sessions that bootleggers eventually found their way into reveal something about the quality of Page’s playing during the supposedly silent period demonstrate that the technical brilliance was not only intact but was

being applied with the same seriousness and imagination that had characterized Led Zeppelin’s recordings. The man who had stopped playing guitar publicly was, it appears, still playing guitar in some form. Still developing ideas. Still maintaining the relationship with the instrument that had defined him.

Even if he was doing so without the world watching. Stewart Epps’ account of working with him on Coda the confusion about whether to attribute Page’s detachment to grief or to something chemical the sense that Page was present in the room without being fully accessible captures something about the complexity of the period that simpler accounts tend to flatten into a straightforward grief narrative.

The truth, as it usually is was more layered than any single explanation can contain. Page was grieving. He was also managing what he had been managing since at least 1975. He was also trying to understand what his life meant without the organizing structure that Led Zeppelin had provided since he was 24 years old.

These were not separate things happening in sequence. They were simultaneous. Each complicating the others. Each making the others harder to navigate cleanly. He navigated them eventually. The ARMS concerts in 1983 put him back in front of audiences. Clapton and Beck were on the stage with him. The cause was unambiguously good.

Ronnie Lane, the Small Faces bassist whose Tetouan, Morocco and Ooh La La had been among the best songs of the early 1970s, living with a degenerative disease that had taken most of his mobility. Page played Stairway to Heaven as an instrumental. He played it alone, without Robert Plant’s lyrics, without John Bonham’s drums, without the complete structure that had made it the most played song in radio history.

He played what he could play with what he had, which was the guitar and the knowledge of how the song was supposed to go. And the audience understood. That moment, Jimmy Page playing Stairway to Heaven without Led Zeppelin at a charity concert for a sick friend in the context of a return from 3 years of near invisibility, is one of the more emotionally loaded performances in the post-Zeppelin period.

It did not mark the beginning of a straightforward recovery. There were still difficult years ahead, still the abortive reunion at Live Aid in 1985 that Plant would describe as objectively disastrous. Still the process of finding what he wanted to do as a solo musician that would take the better part of a decade to resolve.

But it marked something. It marked the end of the part where he had stopped. He had started again. That, in the end, is what the 3 years of disappearance produced. A man who had been through something that most people do not survive intact and who came back to the guitar and played. The guitar he played at Hammersmith in March 1981 at the Jeff Beck concert, the first public playing after months of silence, was a Les Paul.

Not the Danelectro, not the double neck. The Les Paul number one, the guitar that had been the primary instrument of Led Zeppelin’s live performances across 12 [music] years. The guitar whose sound is on every recording from the first album through the final European tour. He walked on stage with the guitar that represented everything he had built and everything he had lost, and he played it, and the audience understood what that meant.

And the disappearance was fractionally less complete for having produced that moment. Three years later, fully returned to professional life, he would form the Firm with Paul Rodgers and make two albums that suggested someone capable of forward motion without quite finding the direction that the motion was supposed to lead. That came later still with the Page and Plant collaborations and the Celebration Day concert and the decades of archival work that kept the Led Zeppelin catalog in the cultural conversation long after the band that

made it had ceased to exist. But the foundation for all of it was those three years. The silence. The stopped guitar. [music] The slow return. The charity concert. The moment he picked up the Les Paul and played for the first time in months and found that it was still there, that he was still there, and that whatever came next, the ability to make music remained available to him. It remained available.

He used it. The disappearance ended.